Jun 13 2009
A Moment of Silence
I’m sitting here on my couch, watching tv. It’s so quiet! On Jay’s visits home and prior to his leaving for Portugal in the first place, he would take Ryan to a local cafe for breakfast…just the two of them. Well, he returned home Tuesday evening (and this time for good…hooray!) and now that it’s Saturday morning, he’s jumping back into his ritualistic ways. The boys woke this morning and Jay got them ready. Normally he’d just take Ryan, a special outing for just the two of them. This morning, however, he took Noah as well. YES! So here I am…the first time in a very long time when I have free-range of the entire house and the freedom to do absolutely whatever I choose to do, whenever I choose to do it. Guineviere is here with me as well, but she’s so mellow, I forget she’s around! Toby is at my mother-in-law’s house as she was helping me to care for him this past week while Jay was gone. Gotta love that! Ahh…the chaos gone! And yet - when they return and Ryan inevitably runs into my arms for a great hello hug and Noah bounces up and down in Jay’s arms when he sees his mommy, I know I’ll happily leave this calm behind me for the chaos that is my amazing family 
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What a completely true description it is, Amy ))) You feel amazed at first moments remaining all by yourself and then start missing that chaos and feeling you need it to live your life.
And the previous post brought tears into my eyes as I was reading about Ryan’s reaction to his daddy coming home ))))))) The bond between a child and a parent is the strongest emotion in the world. Take care! With all my love to you and your family, Anna